first time it's been that light aqua blue color since we've arrived. the dark stuff in the middle is part deep water, part algae (i think). the algea has been mucking up the color of the shallows all week. but today - beautiful. and crowded, too. guess i'm not the only one who noticed the difference.
Got to actually sit down with Ben for almost 45 minutes before Warren went to bed last night. ok, so i pushed the child's bedtime back to 8:20...won't hurt him a bit. then was able to sit and actually TALK with him - first at the table, then out on the patio, both of us reading books. the patio wasn't talking, i'll admit, but just to be in the same vicinity as Ben when he's not asleep? a gift.
i slept last night, too. i'm talking about slept through the night - didn't wake up to roll over to a more comfortable position, didn't dream disorienting dreams, didn't toss and turn and have to decide whether to just get up or try to go back to sleep...i SLEPT. it's been a while. Warren even woke ME up this morning (at 6:30, the little rascal). But it was a good start - he even asked me if I had fun and if I had sweet dreams...precious, precious angel.
fed him breakfast. fed myself breakfast, and went ahead and focused on getting back in my routine of healthy, measured, controlled portion meals. i think that's been one of my release valves for the stress since i've been here...eating poorly, i mean... i haven't been over-indulging or eating really bad things, i've just not paid attention. and my blood sugar has crept up a bit every day, too. so when it hit 132 this morning (i know, nothing terrifying, but well above where i'm supposed to be!) i made a decision to get back on the bandwagon.
then i dressed for the gym. and went to the gym. and enjoyed the gym. and warren enjoyed the childcare area! no tears, went straight to playing. i think he's as excited as i am to have other people to interact with. not that i interacted with anyone - it's not that kind of a gym, as far as i can tell. i truly felt puny next to all the bodybuilders and athtletes with their trainers/coaches...but i grabbed what appears to be their one BOSU ball and went to work. ahhhh. exertion-induced sweat. endorphins. calories expended. i am going to be okay.
came 'home', did laundry, showered/dressed, fed wee man lunch, then let him watch a Thomas the Tank Engine video while i prepped food in the kitchen before his nap. made homemade meaty spaghetti sauce, and my mother's cupcake brownies. there is truly comfort in familiar foods...
warren is asleep, and i am enjoying my afternoon coffee (decaf today!). about to read more in Cutting for Stone, a book i started last night. i am enthralled by the first few pages, and am looking forward to losing myself in a good novel. it's been far too long.
so i'll enjoy the view today, and be grateful for some of the comforts of my routine at home, even though i'm not at home. thanks again for the prayers. we are evolving, one step at a time.
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